I Don’t Like making videos but at the same time I love it! My story
Starting today, I’m doing something different.
Instead of creating long-form videos, I’m going to start writing long-form articles. And I want to take a moment to explain why because this decision is deeper than just switching formats. It’s personal.
To be honest with you, I’m a very shy person.
Most people don’t see that. When you look at the content, the numbers, the consistency, it might look like I’m someone who enjoys being out there, being seen, being recognized. But the truth is the opposite. I’m an introvert. A real one.
I don’t like attention.
I don’t like the idea of being recognized on the streets. I don’t like being watched. I don’t like feeling like people are looking at me or expecting something from me. And that’s something I’ve been dealing with while building everything I’ve built so far.
But here’s where it gets interesting.
At the same time… I love creating.
I love building things. I love sharing ideas. I love exploring new concepts, new perspectives, new ways of thinking. There’s a creative energy inside me that I can’t ignore. It pushes me to create, to express, to put things out into the world.
So I’ve been living in a paradox.
On one side, I have this deep desire to create and contribute.
On the other side, I have this strong resistance to being seen.
And for a long time, I tried to force myself into something that didn’t fully align with who I am.
Making videos.
Showing my face.
Talking directly into the camera.
Engaging constantly in comments.
For some people, that comes naturally. For me, it doesn’t. Every time I do it, there’s a part of me that pulls back. A part that feels uncomfortable. A part that just wants peace, quiet, and space.
And I’ve reached a point where I’m asking myself a simple question:
Why not create in a way that actually feels right?
That’s where writing comes in.
I’ve always loved reading.
I’ve always loved writing.
There’s something about it that feels calm. Controlled. Intentional.
When I write, I can think clearly. I can structure my thoughts. I can go deeper. I can express things without the pressure of being watched in real time. It feels more honest. More natural.
So instead of forcing myself to be someone I’m not, I’m choosing to lean into who I really am.
And this article… is the beginning of that.
From today forward, I’m going to start sharing more of my life, my journey, my thoughts, and my experiences through writing. Not just polished ideas, but real moments. What I go through daily. The challenges, the wins, the lessons, the frustrations.
Everything.
Because behind everything you see behind the platforms, the numbers, the content there’s a real person navigating all of it.
And I want to start showing that side more.
Not through a camera… but through words.
I’m going to share these articles on this platform, and I’ll also share the links on my social media so you can find them easily.
And I want to ask you something.
If you read this, read it with an open mind.
This isn’t about perfection. It’s about honesty.
If something resonates with you, let me know.
On the right side of the article, you’ll see the option to leave a comment. Use it. Share your thoughts. Share your perspective. Let me know if what I’m writing is adding value to your life.
You can also like and review the article.
That feedback matters to me.
Not because I’m chasing validation but because I want to understand if this is helping, if it’s connecting, if it’s meaningful.
At the same time, I ask for one thing.
Keep it respectful. Keep it constructive. Keep it positive.
We already have enough negativity in the world. This space… I want it to be different.
A place where we can share, reflect, and grow.
This is just the beginning.
I don’t know exactly where this journey of writing will lead, but I do know one thing:
It feels right.
And sometimes, that’s all you need to take the first step.
So this is my first article.
Simple. Honest. Real.
And if you’re here reading this, I appreciate you more than you know.
Let’s see where this goes.
— Shudweney